Saturday, February 7, 2009

Daddy's Girl............

You know, each kid is different
with how they handle David's
The boys had each other to keep them
occupied when David would deploy
on the submarine.
I made sure that we always had alot to do
while David was gone to help pass the time.
We were in a fabulous community of friends then too,
which really helped the boys feel
a sense of "family" beyond family.
Madison had lots of tearful days
and some confusion when David would deploy
when she was very little,
but David really didn't deploy alot
during the time that she was 5-9 years old.
It's a whole other story with Bren.

The other night,
I heard her crying in her room.
I went to check on her,
and she was holding this photo
and was just consumed with sadness.
She just kept saying over and over again
that she missed her Daddy.

She finally calmed down
when I let her call his cell phone
and leave a message for him.
It went like this.....
"Da-da-daddy, I miss you!
I am cr-cr-crying for you right n-n-now.
I mi-mi-miss you and I love you.
Heart breaking, huh?

She's always had a special bond with her daddy
and I'm so thankful for their relationship.
She calls him her prince
and she has no doubt that
she's his princess.

From the very moment of her birth,
everyone could tell what a profound effect he had on her.
I had a c-section, so I was not able to
hold her immediately.
David was right by her side though.
We have the very first moments of her life
on video and when I played it back for the first time
I was sitting there with tears running down my face
and just in awe over what I was seeing.
Bren was fussy from the get-go.
She grimaced, seemed uncomfortable
and cried alot while I was in the recovery room
waiting to meet her,
but every single time her Daddy spoke to her
she immediately quieted and was very still and content.
She gripped his finger as he spoke softly to her.
It was amazing.
He'd stop talking and she'd start crying.
No one else's voice would calm her.
Just his.

There is just no denying the importance
of a compassionate, protective Father in a little girl's life.
Brendell and Madison are so very blessed.

But along with a bond this close,

comes pain at separation.

Bren has unfortunately already weathered

three long deployments and two mini ones

in her five years of life.

That kinda hurts.

And so, she has finally begun to express
her sadness in sudden and all-consuming
bouts of free flowing, shoulder shaking tears.
We all have our coping mechanisms
to get us through and right now
dramatic emotion is hers.

It's been a hard few days for her
as we round third base of this short deployment
and run like crazy toward home plate.

She has asked me about 20 times a day
when he'll be home.
Soon, baby girl.
Very soon.

She'll be at school when he arrives, but
you can bet that he'll be waiting at the
bus stop to wrap his arms around her.

She definitely dileriously loves and adores
her Daddy
and is a proud Daddy's girl!
He leaves a big void here when he's gone.
In honor of David's fast approaching homecoming
the "Love Song" I'm featuring on my playlist today
is very appropriately
"Daddy's Home"
by Jackson 5.

Hang in there Bren!
You can hug the real thing very soon!!


Laura said...

Awwwww this just made me tear up. I am such a daddy's girl and while my daddy isn't gone like Bren's is, I still know how she feels. When I was little and my dad would go away on fishing trips I would just wait for the day he would come back home to me. I still do that now just wait for him to come home. Hang in there Bren, your message to daddy was heartbreakingly beautiful. He will be home soon to all of you.

Abby*Lane said...

Tears are pouring down my face. I'm so sorry, Bren!! It's so hard for the little ones to understand. And it's painful to watch, knowing there's really not much you can do. :( Big hugs!

sue said...

Oh, had a nice cry. Can feel her pain...yours too.

Kell E Photography and Lil Belle Bowtique said...

Oh my goodness, I can hardly see the computer through the tears! Hugs for Bren and You! You write beautifully!! From the heart!

Maggie said...

Beautifully written, Becca... I'm so glad he's home now! You're a great mom, supporting that little sweet girl while Daddy's away. :)

Casey said...

Oh wow... You should really put up a warning before these posts!! LOL Well I needed a good cry I guess.
It's a very special bond they have, you can see it in your pictures. Hugs to you and your little one. ;)